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stupid bug! you go squish now!
2001-05-13
1:32 am
there's not much that i'm truly afraid of.
there's a theory saying that if you face your fears, you can overcome them. this may be true at times. the thought of skydiving frightens me. if i actually built up enough courage to do it and the experience was successful, meaning i didn't plummet to an untimely death, my fear might dissipate. while it doesn't mean that i'd necessarily want to do it again, i do imagine that most of my apprehension would be gone.
i've not yet been forced into skydiving, and i don't anticipate that i will anytime soon, if at all. fears of a more personal level are the ones that prey on my mind. i'm speaking of things or situations that frighten me that i have no choice but to deal with. that's life, right? i guess it only truly frustrates me when my fear is completely unfounded - quite like a phobia. here's an example:
i saw one in my garage today. i noticed it, and within that same brief span of time that it took me to actually register "oooh, there's a cockroach", i'd been reduced to a terrified and panicked little girl. i'm talking pure, unadulterated fear. my only instinct was to run out of the room as quickly as possible. so much for facing that fear.
so now i must do something to rid my residence of them before they find a way inside. actually, they probably already have, but i've just been lucky enough to have not seen one inside yet. it's been years since i've actually seen a cockroach around here - even outdoors. i was hoping they'd just migrated somewhere else. we've had a lot of rain recently, so i'm sure that they are not having any problems finding water. the fact that the humidity is often abnormally high here doesn't help matters any. food is not a problem, either. "cockroaches eat almost anything: crumbs, hair, fingernail clippings, spots of grease, soiled clothes, pet fur and dead insects (even dead cockroaches). they will cannibalize their own young and egg cases if food becomes scarce." that is just disgusting. i don't care how interesting or fascinating anyone says they are, i refuse to share my living space with creatures like this. of course, some people feel differently.
random movie quote:
"there's no decision, you just write the damn thing."
"well, you don't think it's weird, and kinda fascist?"
"possibly, but you don't want to be unemployed."
"oh, well, all right, let's all just sell our souls and work for satan 'cause it's more convenient that way."
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